Monday, June 22, 2009

I am lost.................

I have no clue as to what to do? Am I not a good person? Why are so many people that I know and love dying? Is God trying to tell me something? My niece delivers her new baby 5 weeks early. With the baby's intestines on the outside of her little body! John's little sister April(the one with MS) is put in hospice. They tell us it will not be long! God, why is this happening? I do not understand and I am weary. So far this year 3 beloved family member have died. I know that at least they are no longer in pain and in heaven.
I'm sorry friends that you have to hear my cries. I guess I need to get on my knees and give up fighting God. That's what this feels like.
Please pray for my newest baby niece Alora Jean! She is so tiny and she is fighting too!
Please pray for April that when she finally quits fighting she can find rest.
That's all friends,
I'm done in.
Donna :(

13 comments:

Kim B said...

Oh Donna. My heart pours out to you. You must ache so much. It's obviously been a very difficult year for you and your family. I wish I knew something comforting to say to you. These are difficult times and praise God you have your heart turned to Him. You and all your loved ones are in our prayers. (((HUGS)))

missy said...

I pray for strength, love and knowledge for you and your family!!! I can feel your pain by reading your words!!! I wish I could do something...anything to help your pain go away!!!

Michelle said...

I am praying sweetie and have been. I won't pretend I understand why so much happens to good people but I do know God does love you.

Michele said...

I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. God is Good, and I hope that your family is able to find Peace and Grace through this suffering.

Michele

Vonna said...

Donna, I know how you feel, I've been through a lot of things like you're going through right now. I know this sounds like a broken record, but put your faith in God. Bad things happen to good people, its all in God's hands at his time. Everything happens for a reason, it may be unclear to you now, but you will understand and find comfort and peace someday. I know you will. I'm praying for all your loved ones and for you too my friend. Don't give up!

Tammy said...

I'm so sorry your family is going through so much Donna. Hang in there.

Carol R said...

Sorry to hear of the difficult time you and your family are going through this year. My thoughts are with you.

devonaz said...

Donna,
Consider your self hugged,,,I just wanted to tell you that my grandson was also born with his intestines on the outside he is three months old and still in the hospital but doing good,,hopefully he will be coming home soon..he was 1 month early weighing in at 5lbs..I did a search for that and it all differs on the child how long they are in the hospital,,your niece and baby will be in my prayers,,as also you and your family...take care..

Devon

kimstitch3 said...

I too am praying for you. I use to ask the same question. My pastor mentioned pain and suffering yesterday and how when we go through these sad and painful times,and we line them up with God's truth we have ministry. I know that sounds corny right now, but someday later in life you will help others that arent as strong as you. I pray for peace and God's will in your situation.Kimberly

Lisa said...

Donna, I am so sorry to read about everything that you are going through, but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Michele said...

(((((((((donna)))))))))) wish there were words hun

GoldenAngelsWorks said...

I definitely know these times of overflowing grief. Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

Just a thought... could there be something that April is fighting to stay alive for? (someone that may need to say goodbye, acknowledge forgiveness or ex...) My dad did this....

God is there holding all of you...

CindyMae said...

Oh Sweety, I am so sorry things are hard right now but remember that God will NEVER give you more than you can handle. Talk to him often and He will help you though. He has a plan and even though we may not agree with it or even understand He does what is best in the long run!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!